Farewell My Beloved

Letting Go

My beloved grandma passed away last Saturday evening. She died in my very arms. I was alone with her together with my son. We saw her slipping away right in front of our very eyes and was helpless to do much to help her. The question on whether I could have done anything more or differently that could have saved her kept haunting me. I kept seeing her whenever my mind is free.

Others kept telling me and my family that is was a good way to go as she does not need to go thru long period of pain or sufferings. For she had left us while having her dinner (she ate halfway) together with my son by her side. Perhaps it was.... but we are still trying to wrap our mind around the notion that we did not get to say farewell to her or to hear her last words.

Deep down inside, I know I should count my blessing for I am the last person to have held her, sooth her and spoken to her during her last moment. Nevertheless, the experience was one that's going to follow me till the end of my days. It was traumatic for me and my son yet, it was one that one memory only I alone could have to cherish.

We missed her dearly as she was the magnet of our family. She pulls us all together as an inseparable family unit. Without her we are lost.

Though I wished to say more, my heart does not have the strength yet for me to carry on.

I would like to observe a moment of silence in the loving memory of this beautiful woman, my dearest grandma.

Angels

This is the memorial message we are engraving onto her resting sanctuary, for it was one that truly reflect our love for her:

Flowers

Gone yet not forgotten,
although we are apart,
your spirit lives within us,
forever in our hearts.

Comments

[ペギー]

hugs

hope u'r feeling better now

take care kleio

[greywolf]

Sorry to hear that.  It's always a tough time for the family.  My thoughts are with you.

[Kleio the Muse]

*hugs back* Thanks dear.

I am coping. Have to hang in there for mom. Make her happy again.

[Kleio the Muse]

Thank you for your kind thoughts. Yea it's tough. But I shall stay strong for my mom, brother and sister. Do no want to see the family drift apart.

[jrfiction]

Kleio, my heart reaches out to you at this difficult time. In the short time I have known you I can see that you are both strong and sensitive, you will make it through with the love of your family and friends. Peace to you.

[Mikey]

[this is good] Very sorry to hear this. I know she meant so much to you! :(

That's all we can do is try to go on...

Hugs to you and your family at this difficult time.

[Kleio the Muse]

Dear All


Thank you for your kind thoughts and concern. I am still struggling to
get use to living each day without her cheery presence. Missing her
voice, her face and every little thing about her.

I find my
eyes and mind drift to her favorite corners at every given opportunity
and fondly albeit sadly reminiscing days spent with her. Trying to
remember her voice her face and every gestures. Afraid of losing these
precious memories to the flow of time.

I know time heals... but... I am not sure if I ever wanted it to.

Thank
you all for your understanding of me being absent and silent for such
long time. I am not sure when I would feel ok to come back to
blogsphere again.

Tho I now no longer cry at each mentioned of
her but... my heart still feels heavy. For she is the most precious
person in my life. I am who I am thanks to her.

[rozinorazali]

hugs from aboard...

all living things will soon be leaving this world...
sad to here the story, but i'm hoping you stay on the road and life a happy life with the one that are still with you...
stay stronger kleio...

[Kleio the Muse]

Thanks for your encouragement and sorry for my so very late reply. I am doing fine now by the way. I still wish she is still around with us, laughing and joking with us etc. But I also know it may be the best and most gentle way for her to go. She did went peacefully after all - it's something most of us want - to go peacefully without pain or much pain and sufferings involved. So each time I were to lament her passing, I would remind self of this and wish she rest in peace.